It's a song about looking back while moving forward; about appreciating what formed you without letting it define you as you continue to grow. To show this in the music, I recorded (and sang!) everything backwards, and then reversed it – and the effect I think is really cool. As the lyrics suggest, the imagery of a lake serves as a metaphor for the deep catalogues of memories we carry with us each day. Sometimes the water is peaceful, sometimes stormy, but no matter the weather there's always the risk of falling into the waters.
A clear and emotional voice tells a story of past mistakes, self-acceptance, and crippling loneliness. Production is stripped down to just voice, piano, and some bass to highlight ideas of being vulnerable and desperately wanting human connection. Lyrically, questions laden with doubt are interwoven with a lament for what was and what is imagined to be. The song finally settles into a morbid, circling shuffle, the voice emotionally calling out for help in a final plea of resigned acceptance.
Below is a collection of releases and demos from previous projects and chapters of my life. Some of it is more polished than others. Some of it might be considered "juvenalia". Some of it I might re-record someday. However they are, I'm proud of all of them for each being a part of my development and creative output. In that spirit, I'm making them available for others.
Features a collection of songs and pieces written 2004-2007. Many of the songs were recorded on a usb mic in my bedroom. Self-conscious about the noise, I tried to record everything as quietly as possible. This album also features two songs performed by Telephonic Butter - one of the bands I was in and is also for whom this album is named (the other was "Irksome Mother Orchestra"). We played school dances, homecoming, rock-offs, and other shows throughout Maine. Many of the tracks here were included on the first CD I "released" - would walk around the school selling them to my classmates for $1. I was so confident then. It was near the end of this time I had some bad performances I wasn't equipped to handle. After this album, I only wrote music in secret.
credits released August 1, 2006 All Instruments performed by Joshua A Jandreau except where indicated keys, Benjamin Tibbetts (All Fall Down / Sir Isaac Lime) bass, Cooper Smith (All Fall Down / Sir Isaac Lime) drums, Camden Smith (All Fall Down / Sir Isaac Lime)
Music written by Joshua A Jandreau Tracks 1-7, 10-11 recorded by Joshua A Jandreau Tracks 8-9 recorded by Smith Recording Studio Mixed by Joshua A Jandreau